Fatigue

I have now had my 3rd round of Kadcyla. The first is given over 90 minutes to ensure that there is no adverse reaction. The doses thereafter are given over 30 minutes. The last 3 weeks, with the odd exception I have been beyond knackered. So I asked the great oracle (which is the internet and facebook) and there is a theory that giving it over 60 rather than 30 minutes reduces the level of fatigue. So this is what I asked for and got.

I decided that this time round I would do as little as possible immediately after treatment. This was quite easy as I am knackered. In fact day 3 I spent most of the day in bed asleep. The annoying thing is, that apart from the extreme fatigue, I actually feel quite good, no aches or pains. There is no way of describing how completely debilitating fatigue from cancer is. It is amazing how many people say to me, yes I'm very tired too. I know what they mean and I long to be that tired.

There is an open letter from a breast care nurse who unfortunately was diagnosed with breast cancer earlier this year. It is a long list of apologies, the most telling of which is, " I didn't get that when you said you were tired, you really meant so much more. Sure there are words like exhaustion and extreme fatigue - but there should really be a separate word just for cancer patients, because it's crippling. Really. Some days you really wondered how you'd trudge forward. I'm sorry. I didn't get it."

I am hoping that this initial complete collapse of my energy will improve. There is always the steroid route, but then although it does boost energy levels and appetite, it is a short term fix and furthermore, there is a huge crash when the steroids are stopped.

Anyone who tells me that a little bit of exercise helps with fatigue will be best advised to move out of my immediate vicinity, as I will summon up what very little energy I have and probably thump them,